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Wow! I haven't been  on here in months. I've been working, writing a book which will be finished at the end of this year. And dealing with my emotional self throughout these times without him here still since those two weeks. I've been trying to find myself along with a new career while dealing with an old job, also finding new friends and getting rid of old ones. As well as, working on a few of my hobbies along with new ones, like

looming and couponing. Planning my future while getting saying good bye to my past. In the meantime, all the holidays, events, situations, creations, plans/goals that have came in my path...well let's just say they are still coming! I don't expect my life to be perfect but I do expect to reach my goals and dreams by a certain time period without anyone standing in my way with their opinions and what not... to be me and love it!

DECEMBER 2013, JANUARY, FEBRUARY 7 MARCH 2014; yes, it was Christmas, New Years, Valentine's Day, & St. Patties Day. On X-mas day the store was closed so I had a day off, big deal?! But i got a few things from my Marine =) like a new kitchen aid looking mixer and a giant gift card to AC Moore arts and craft store, if I can recall I got a new phone around that time too..I forgot the order of gifts but I loved them and used them all & giving presents to my lil chubby kitty Rina.

Other than that, guess what I was doing? Working my behind off! Even though one co-worker I worked in the same field as recommended I slow down and not try and doing everything in the little amount of time I had during my shift everyday. But, I failed to listen to him though, it was a habit for my to work fast and get everything done; I mean who else was going to do it? Especially the lousy new people and ones who've been there for a century (the morning shift) things would fall on the evening shift. Besides working, i celebrated my mother's birthday in February I sure didn't celebrate V-day. Why? Oh yeah, because I got NOTHING from him even though I had asked for something, it never came and he didn't make up for it! I saw people at work and everywhere, get something special but me; I hated it! What else? March was a celebration of my older
sisters birthday and no I didn't do anything for St. Patties Day...moving on...

For the past few months I have had a lot of down time lately due to work issues, but before that all occurred I was ale to see a Broadway show in APRIL 2014, called ALADDIN, and it was awesome! Yet at the end of April during my unexpected incident, I  found myself very bored at home all the time doing nothing but staying in bed and getting up only when I needed to use the bathroom and such. So I convinced myself to do something with my life for the time being so I won't die of boredom! I did what I loved to do best, bake and make things since I am very artsy! I taught myself how to loom by watching several YouTube videos and it became very addicting! I also took it upon myself to try and make a lovely cake out of fondant and as you can see it came out perfect! As well as making candles and creating my own scents, hand poured my yours truly. I'm so talented =)

Of course MAY began and mother's day was before my upcoming birthday so I knew I had to try and do something for my mother even though we were both in no condition to do anything at all anyways, but I made her a fruit basket being that edible arrangements charge way too much for something I can do on my own, along with a card and a homemade cake, breakfast and her favorite tea. Surprisingly, My older sister did something for me, which was since I have a five year old cat who acts like a baby she made this day about me as well; by buying me a car and bracelet and pretending they all came from my chubby Rina Katina, ha ha! Besides that, my birthday came up and I knew i didn't want to stay buried in the house for that one day at least, so I got whoever was willing to come out to join me even though it was only a few people it was better than no one at all. It began in a big disaster along with a speeding ticket the day of my birthday, but it ended well because it went all the way into the beginning of JUNE! I never did anything that my body wasn't supposed to be doing, unlike when I was working I was always busting my behind for a small dose of antidote that barely kept me alive through the days, weeks, months and years. Although, dealing with my boredom seemed to be the easy part even when sometimes I didn't know what to do that day. Other things arose, like becoming emotional and thinking about my future my plans and goals; realizing I had doubts and that I am still not getting any younger but OLDER! And I didn't want to waste my time anymore by sitting around giving but not receiving. So, I spoke the truth from my mind. Good news, possibly? My marine only had a few more months left until he'll be done for good, and hopefully by then he will make some serious moves and marry me and we'll have a small apartment and a baby on the way. I say "possibly," because...I don't know about him...but...my future will be bright! Meanwhile, I may still be a bit skeptical, at least I had some hope now on the future that I desired.    

But between all of that was the non-sense of all my doctors appointments, I had so many that I even got them mixed up a few times and went to the wrong ones at the wrong times! I even began forgetting what day it was, because I was cooped up in the house for weeks upon weeks. And I then realized that no one at work truly cared about how I was doing, no one even asked. I had one person ask here and there, but it was probably because they missed how much I used to bust my behind and now they had more on their hands because I'm not around; well I'm sorry it happens to the best workers I guess...those who are more dedicated to their work...whom don't milk it through out their whole shift!

With that being said...I shall forget about my blog again until the next time I have a long update on my life, because seemingly so...it's never anything to be excited about. Sorry. Wish me good luck on my recovery!