I'm Back!!!

Happy New Years Everyone!
It has been a long time since I have been on my blog.
Thank you to all my followers who have viewed my blog.

Let's catch up, shall we?

My Marine got out the military. No, he did not want to re enlist...so we would travel the world together and what not. But I supported his decision anyways. Although the civilian world is just as tough as the mil world. Meaning... expensive! And my hubs transition totally sucked...it still sucks!That is just another blog waiting to happen, ha.

With that being said...

I got married to my Marine December 13th, 2014 (12/13/14), lucky? Possibly. We had a small wedding with close family and friends.

Almost a year after, we were expecting out first child; Olivia Amani Foster. She was born 2/26/16. She is now 10 months old. Yes I planned her 1st birthday party already, I am very anxious. Time did fly by fast too, but I cherish every moment. And I am so happy to finally have my own child; I love being a mommy!

What else?

I get along with my in laws so much more since I had my daughter... I'm telling you a baby changes everything! It started when I was about 6 months along in my pregnancy and my husband finally told his mother about it, because he had bumped into her on his way home. And I then invited them to the baby shower, that I had 12/5/16. I was not sure if they would come at all because I did not get ay responses, but they did! I was nervous and it was uncomfortable but we got along great and even better after Olivia was born! Yay, to family. Keep family close.

Also, before I had my daughter we moved into our first apartment together to start our little family. My cat; Sabrina "Rina", myself, husband and daughter under one roof. Yay!

Besides that, I moved on from my old crappy job at a supermarket as a cake decorator to...an administrative assistant; with my own little desk and everything. This job also requires me to work with kids, which I love.

What else?

Guess you'll just have to wait and see...

Addicted Hobby

I love to bake and make things, but I've always had a passion for purchasing candles at a bargain prices, but now it's become something more serious...for me anyway. I began buying all the materials needed to make candles and wax melts/tarts on my own at home. At first I wasn't sure it would turn out so great, but I got the hang of it all on my own. And...it became awesome! The variety of scents, oils, smells, colors and mixtures...so wonderful. I got opinions about selling them, but instead I could make them gifts for any occasion as well as favors for my own events! Then how could I not go to the Yankee candle semi-annual sale of 50-75% off mostly everything in the store, although I had a budget which I fulfilled. I also purchased scents online and small favor sized containers. I can't wait to get the party started, ha ha! Hopefully I don't buy anything else I set my eyes on. Wish me luck. 
                          MAY YOUR DAYS BE BRIGHT!

   

Up to date

                     

Wow! I haven't been  on here in months. I've been working, writing a book which will be finished at the end of this year. And dealing with my emotional self throughout these times without him here still since those two weeks. I've been trying to find myself along with a new career while dealing with an old job, also finding new friends and getting rid of old ones. As well as, working on a few of my hobbies along with new ones, like

looming and couponing. Planning my future while getting saying good bye to my past. In the meantime, all the holidays, events, situations, creations, plans/goals that have came in my path...well let's just say they are still coming! I don't expect my life to be perfect but I do expect to reach my goals and dreams by a certain time period without anyone standing in my way with their opinions and what not... to be me and love it!

DECEMBER 2013, JANUARY, FEBRUARY 7 MARCH 2014; yes, it was Christmas, New Years, Valentine's Day, & St. Patties Day. On X-mas day the store was closed so I had a day off, big deal?! But i got a few things from my Marine =) like a new kitchen aid looking mixer and a giant gift card to AC Moore arts and craft store, if I can recall I got a new phone around that time too..I forgot the order of gifts but I loved them and used them all & giving presents to my lil chubby kitty Rina.

Other than that, guess what I was doing? Working my behind off! Even though one co-worker I worked in the same field as recommended I slow down and not try and doing everything in the little amount of time I had during my shift everyday. But, I failed to listen to him though, it was a habit for my to work fast and get everything done; I mean who else was going to do it? Especially the lousy new people and ones who've been there for a century (the morning shift) things would fall on the evening shift. Besides working, i celebrated my mother's birthday in February I sure didn't celebrate V-day. Why? Oh yeah, because I got NOTHING from him even though I had asked for something, it never came and he didn't make up for it! I saw people at work and everywhere, get something special but me; I hated it! What else? March was a celebration of my older
sisters birthday and no I didn't do anything for St. Patties Day...moving on...

For the past few months I have had a lot of down time lately due to work issues, but before that all occurred I was ale to see a Broadway show in APRIL 2014, called ALADDIN, and it was awesome! Yet at the end of April during my unexpected incident, I  found myself very bored at home all the time doing nothing but staying in bed and getting up only when I needed to use the bathroom and such. So I convinced myself to do something with my life for the time being so I won't die of boredom! I did what I loved to do best, bake and make things since I am very artsy! I taught myself how to loom by watching several YouTube videos and it became very addicting! I also took it upon myself to try and make a lovely cake out of fondant and as you can see it came out perfect! As well as making candles and creating my own scents, hand poured my yours truly. I'm so talented =)

Of course MAY began and mother's day was before my upcoming birthday so I knew I had to try and do something for my mother even though we were both in no condition to do anything at all anyways, but I made her a fruit basket being that edible arrangements charge way too much for something I can do on my own, along with a card and a homemade cake, breakfast and her favorite tea. Surprisingly, My older sister did something for me, which was since I have a five year old cat who acts like a baby she made this day about me as well; by buying me a car and bracelet and pretending they all came from my chubby Rina Katina, ha ha! Besides that, my birthday came up and I knew i didn't want to stay buried in the house for that one day at least, so I got whoever was willing to come out to join me even though it was only a few people it was better than no one at all. It began in a big disaster along with a speeding ticket the day of my birthday, but it ended well because it went all the way into the beginning of JUNE! I never did anything that my body wasn't supposed to be doing, unlike when I was working I was always busting my behind for a small dose of antidote that barely kept me alive through the days, weeks, months and years. Although, dealing with my boredom seemed to be the easy part even when sometimes I didn't know what to do that day. Other things arose, like becoming emotional and thinking about my future my plans and goals; realizing I had doubts and that I am still not getting any younger but OLDER! And I didn't want to waste my time anymore by sitting around giving but not receiving. So, I spoke the truth from my mind. Good news, possibly? My marine only had a few more months left until he'll be done for good, and hopefully by then he will make some serious moves and marry me and we'll have a small apartment and a baby on the way. I say "possibly," because...I don't know about him...but...my future will be bright! Meanwhile, I may still be a bit skeptical, at least I had some hope now on the future that I desired.    

But between all of that was the non-sense of all my doctors appointments, I had so many that I even got them mixed up a few times and went to the wrong ones at the wrong times! I even began forgetting what day it was, because I was cooped up in the house for weeks upon weeks. And I then realized that no one at work truly cared about how I was doing, no one even asked. I had one person ask here and there, but it was probably because they missed how much I used to bust my behind and now they had more on their hands because I'm not around; well I'm sorry it happens to the best workers I guess...those who are more dedicated to their work...whom don't milk it through out their whole shift!

With that being said...I shall forget about my blog again until the next time I have a long update on my life, because seemingly so...it's never anything to be excited about. Sorry. Wish me good luck on my recovery!
 

Another Two Weeks

So it seems my handsome fiance had paid an emergency visit due to his mother nearly dying from a surgery she did NOT need! As always she made it very difficult for us to spend time together without any comments from the peanut gallery!

"Yes Terrence is not here for this hes here too take care of his mother. Lets not forget this is emergency leave for me. Terrence is an adult he can do as he please. However you are clearly missing the point. It disrespectful to me hes not here for you this home visit is for him to care for me and family nothing else. Now I'm done with this I'm very annoyed by this,"said the future mother in law.

Yet I always have to keep my composure and not LOSE IT on her because she is his mother. Whatever that's supposed to mean! Or else I would have said something in response to that, like, last time I checked you said I was a part of your crazy family already, and if he's here for family like you said, doesn't that include me!? And disrespectful, I went out my way even though I didn't have to, and bought expensive book bags and school supplies for the two younger kids YOU have, because you couldn't afford to! Not that they don't deserve it, because they do! But the way your acting up and down with me is the disrespectful part of it all!! As well as me paying you more visits that your second oldest son, when you were in the hospital, and yet again going out my way and purchasing balloons, cards, and flowers in a vase for you outside of the hospitals gift shop! But I'm disrespectful? Ha ha! Or in fact when no one was able to pick up the two younger kids from school, I never hesitate and go to pick them up! And the list goes on...

But when your oldest son, my fiance and future husband and father to my children =) wants to spend literally every waken minute with me, it's such a BIG problem! I worked every day those two weeks and was off once a week, but every night I would find time, strength to drive down by the ferry area where he stayed babysitting his mother to spend quality time with him, ALONE! Being that we can never get any privacy when in the company of his family...we leave elsewhere! One night he acted on his own to NOT return until the next day, so that it was easier on me not to have to drive around 2 or 3 am in the morning, dropping him back off to babysit. He stayed over my place, and very early we both received a very disturbing voice mail on our phones; a bunch of yelling, cursing going on.

Like always, he had to rush to her rescue! I did not hesitate again to drive him there as I never do! But yet she thinks I control him and have him wrapped around my finger. Disgusting! I never tell him he can't see his family or speak to them. Had she ever thought, maybe her son doesn't want to! No, she would never think it's his fault, but MINE of course.

During these two weeks, he had to drop his younger brother to school by MTA bus early in the morning to show him how to get around for school, all this last minute nonsense basically...then afterwards he came over to my house that morning to relax and lay in bed with me for the morning until I had work that afternoon. But almost an hour after relaxing she called him saying that he needed to come back to the house ASAP, because there was a mouse caught on a trap...dead, obviously! No hesitation... I let him leave to attend to her...more excuses not to spend time with me, and babysit someone who was getting better by the days. Being able to walk on her own, and feed herself, use the bathroom; you name it! Just a waste of time, for hi, to sit around doing...nothing and being bored! Or the fact that, his mother's mother could have babysat she also came flying in from Georgia to take care of her daughter; she needed all hands on deck attention! Hmm. Whatever!

Besides that, we tried to make the best of things by going to the movies, the city, out to eat, a little shopping, movie and sleep over nights at my place, etc. Phones off! And it turned out great the times we were able to spend together without any interruptions from anyone; family or buddies! It was a first, but it was wonderful I tell you! Many pictures were captured, during every part of the days we spent together =)

Unexpectedly at the very end, we both agreed to trying to make a baby! Finally...I've been having baby fever forever. Anyways, but after the fact I guess it was too late anyways to do so unplanned...because...I ended up NOT being, you know what! And we BOTH had our hopes up, but I didn't pass the test. Although all signs pointed to that good news; sadly nothing. I honestly was in denial and devastated because I kept hoping it maybe was a mistake. Now I have to wait until Aug. 2014 to unplanned once again, and that's too far for me after waiting this long already and ignoring this baby fever. Hmm. #Stressed#NegativeResults#SadMess#InLawProblems#MilitaryLifestyle

My 23rd Birthday & Graduation

So much for killing to birds with one stone or a double whammy! May 30th 2013 was both my college graduation and 23rd birthday all in one day, and it turned out great!!! Better than last year if I had to say myself, it was long ceremony but afterwards was fantastic for me. including getting a special something in the mail from my sweetheart Marine, and he's no longer overseas, he's state side, yay!!! So I got a birthday gift from him in the mail, and he remembered me!!! Which last year or before that and holidays I can't say he had remembered, but this really made everything much better for me, it showed a lot of love from miles a part! He purchased my gift and remembered while celebrating his very own May 3rd at Six Flags around his new stationed area, that showed a lot. Although, when he was overseas for a couple of years and he was working hard of course it may slipped his mind, I know it wasn't on purpose though. And now that he is state side and hasn't really gotten involved with piles of work, he was able to remember my special day, ALL DAY!!! It really meant so

much to me, and I didn't have to ask, remind or tell him what I wanted, he guessed all on his own of something I seemed to like, and of course I DID!!! =) Also, during my special day, he wanted to be the first to announce his love onto my social network page and
that just make everything even greater than it already had begun to be with the gift I got from him in the mail. So0 much better than last year and years before, including spending it with my family all day long, although it was a massive heatwave which I almost passed out during my college ceremony with a crazy migraine, it was worth it afterwards when I went out to eat and watched a movie that i wanted to see, and much needed gifts, gifts, GIFTS!!! Just a little support goes a long way, Thank you to my family and my loving fiance

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Leave Part II

 It took a while for me to do it, but after I completed it, waiting for it to be delivered and seeing how my creativity turned out... was making me anxious!!! Eventually, I got it in the mail, and it turned out great!!! A HOMECOMING BANNER <3 And now the next part is to wait until he comes home, for a small homecoming that I had planned for him since I haven't done one for him since the first time he came home back last summer of 2012. This time around it will be around spring 2013, YAY!!! 

Because I "CARE" Packages

It was my Marines birthday May 2012, I believe and I wanted to do something different and special that he would remember and love. So I wrapped all of his things I was going to send him, snacks, and such... and decorated the priority box the best way possible, to WOW him. With hand written meaningful words to motivate him some more while he is overseas. Looked more like gifts, if you asked me, but like I said all edible snacks hidden inside these gift wrapping papers, tired with birthday string, with paper stock glues all around the inside of the box. And I sure did, his reaction was priceless, and also this was my first attempt of doing all of this, I seem to think I've done well myself. 

Yet, after this I kept up with decorating each care package, because not only did it bring joy to him every time he received one, but also I just love arts & crafts. There are other packages decorated with sticky paper in checkered board form, and I included white & black chess pieces along two sides. And always adding " I Love You, I Miss You" to almost each box sent. While trying out a "cookie monster package," "movie, peace & quiet package," "healthy package," (that didn't work out so good. He's all about his junk food while overseas, ha.), "Happy Birthday package," "Christmas package," (with a candy tree, I got the idea from Pinterest), etc. 

I never forget to always include his Pop tarts, because like he says, "you can never get tired of Pop tarts." As well as, all his other favorite snacks, chips and dip, baby food (oatmeal and sauces), fruit cups, cookies of all kinds, cake-in-a-jar, Barilla Pastas, wipes, tissues, earphones, batteries, strawberry shortcake snacks, etc. But in the end, it is all worth it to me just to hear and see his reactions every single time something is sent his way!!